Where God Shows Up Part 1

 

In Isaiah 6, we hear how God swooped in and showed up in Isaiah’s life in a way that discombobulated and disoriented him.  Isaiah had just gone to church, thinking, “Maybe I will have a bagel for lunch.”  At some point, Isaiah realized God was there.  The truth is that God is always there.  As the mystics say, “There is no place God is not.”  Yet, there are certainly places and among certain people where it is nearly impossible to figure out what God is up to in that moment.  When I look back, with my soul squinting and mind spinning, I suddenly realize the Sacred had been there all along. 

 

When have you felt like God showed up in your life?  To be sure, it might not have been as splashy and spectacular as Isaiah 6.  God’s robe may not have cuddled you.  God’s angels probably did not serenade you.  But your shy soul, like Isaiah, shouted out, “Here I am, God!  Pick me!  Pick me!!”  Like you were back on the baseball, kickball, softball field of your youth, hoping not to be the last one standing waiting. 

 

How has God shown up in your life?  Maybe through music, art, reading, conversations, hugs, friendship, smiles, listening ears, trees swaying in the breeze, or wading in the water.  Maybe through laughter or quiet, maybe in your home or thousands of miles away from your bed at a place you always wanted to visit.  As you look over your timeline of places you’ve been, people you’ve met, highlights and lowlights, where has God been? 

 

I confess that I have a hard time finding God in the difficult parts of life.  When my soul is sagging or when grief has paid an unwelcome visit.  Where is God among people whose presence is like fingernails on a chalkboard of my soul?  Sure, theologically and theoretically, I say that everyone is created in God’s image, but some people offer abundant evidence to the contrary.  Today, scan over the artwork/chart of your life from the last few weeks.  Think back to your childhood home: was there a cozy corner where you felt safe, wrapped in the Sacred?  Or in College, was there a church you wandered into or went to because of friends, and suddenly God was there?  Look back over the last ten years in the photo album of life: where have you encountered God?  May you discover how God’s light and love have led you thus far and continue to be part of your life to this day.

Prayer

 

Crafting, creating, conducting, composing, and copy-editing, God, thank you for the ways You are still writing a melody, harmony, and holy story in my life.  Thank you for the mystery of places where I have been and the people I’ve met/encountered.  Thank you for the stars that shine brightly within me through moments that linger and leave the warmth of light in my heart.  Thank you, even for moments when the light wasn’t as bright, and I still shed tears thinking of that experience.  There are highlights, lowlights, and so-so lights that have been collected as I moved through each day.  Help me stay open to You as we near the halfway point of this year.  Help me stay grounded in Your soil and guided by Your stars.  Awaken me and keep me always aware that You have been, are, and promise to always be near.  In the name of the One who embodied Your love, Jesus the Christ.  Amen.  

Stardust of Experiences and Encounters Part 4

 

Did you know that there are over 9000 stars in the sky that you could see with your eye, without a telescope?  Did you know that you can only see about 2000 stars on any given night, but you need to be far away from any artificial light source, and it needs to be a moonless night?  Did you know that stars are born in batches and are categorized by the light they radiate?  Who knew the Morning Meditation would be a science lesson?  The point is you can’t see every star – true scientifically and in the art project of your life.  Some stars in your life shine brighter and leave you soaked/saturated in ways that other star moments did not.  Last Sunday, we looked at Moses’ story of encountering the burning bush.

I wonder if he walked past that burning bush the previous day and didn’t see it.  Maybe he was chasing Gus the Sheep, who had wandered away again!  Maybe he was scrolling on his phone, playing Wordle, or gazing at the last star disappearing as the sun claimed the sky.  Maybe God tried to get Moses’ attention by making bats form words in the sky, but Moses was looking at the sand.  Maybe God tried to have the wildebeests sing a song, but Moses just said, “That’s odd.”  We don’t know.  I do know that not every star gets wished upon, noticed, or named.  You and I could fill our papers with galaxies of stars ~ reviewing our calendars or diaries, combing our lives, and still miss moments.  You might just now remember a house/place you lived in for a short six months or that friend whose love made a difference, but you lost touch decades ago ~ and out of sight can be out of mind.  Or just now you thought, “How could I forget that experience or event?”  Listening to your life, the unfinished sacred symphony, isn’t a one-and-done homework assignment; it is the invitation of a lifetime.  Breathe, permit yourself to complete what you can now, knowing that you can return to this again and again.  May you continue to pay attention to the stars over your head that illuminate the stardust in the solar system of your soul.  Amen.

Stardust of Experiences and Encounters Part 3

 

Too often, in the hustle and bustle of to-do items to be crossed off, projects completed, and calendar spaces to be filled, I can miss the Holy humming quietly in my life.  For the last week and a half, I have invited you to listen to your life for the holy mystery/symphony/unfolding and unfinished story it is.  As Karl Rahner wrote, "In the torment of the insufficiency of everything attainable, we come to realize that, in this life, all symphonies must remain unfinished."  Pause with me.  Re-read that quote, both its rough edges and beautiful invitations.  Rahner reminds us that life has a quality of feeling like not enough or that there is more to life that we are not tasting, seeing, or experiencing.  The insufficiency Rahner writes about is the constant desiring of more, and this can leave us with the frustrating incompleteness of what is.  You buy a pair of shoes you love, only to find another pair you love more on sale the next time you are at the store.  You go on a retreat, there in that place, you have what you think is a life-changing experience, only four months later, to fall back into the ruts and routines of life before you went.  The not-enough-ness of our lives is what marketing and social media and streaming platforms bank on.  We are continually shown new products being rolled out, and we are being rolled over by the steady stream of more/more/more every day.  The market is flooded not only politically, but also in our consumeristic culture.

 

Okay, philosophical soapbox sermon over.  (I hear your sigh of relief).  My point is that your holy summer homework project of listening to your shy soul sing might feel like one more thing to do.  I pray it isn’t.  Today, I encourage you to breathe in the beauty of God, who is still authoring your story.  The beauty of stars that shine in the deepest ink-spilled night skies.  The beauty of places where the dust beneath the soles of your feet has sunk into your soul.  The beauty of people who linger in your imagination, even if their presence is to remind you what you don’t want to be.  Look at what you have on the paper before you.  Rectangles drawn with places named.  Circles of people who included you, embraced and enfolded you, and perhaps people who have heartbreakingly excluded you.  You’ve added stars of moments and memories that left dust in your life.  Your masterpiece of life doesn’t need to be finished and handed in for a grade, although I would love to talk to you about what you are discovering or discerning in listening to your life.  Today, sit quietly with the incompleteness of what you’ve done so far, especially if you have had to cross things out or scribble over names or add one more star to an already cramped and crowded space.  Your life doesn’t need to be a Picasso-winning art; rather, your life is the beautiful unfinished symphony of God.  Amen.

Stardust of Experiences and Encounters Part 2

 

How did charting the stars of your life go yesterday?  You have a whole galaxy shining within you.  Your past forms constellations that never stop spinning, swirling, expanding, and evolving.  In the shifting patterns of life, sometimes a moment that might have been a lowlight for you in the past suddenly starts to glimmer or glisten in a new way.  Or maybe a moment you thought shone so brightly loses some of its luster.  The stories we tell are not meant to grow stagnant.  But sometimes we repeat and replay a memory so many times it becomes worn and weathered.  Sometimes our stories become stale because we keep saying the same words in the same way, never allowing the story to find new life as what mixes and mingles with what is right now.  No matter how we try to put our stories/lives/faith in a Tupperware container on the shelf for safekeeping, time will keep reforming what has been, considering what is. It is when we step back with a wider lens/perspective/hindsight to witness how the various parts and pieces are connected and re-connecting in ways we never noticed before.  Today, keep adding new stars to your chart and art.  Maybe you now remember that play in High School that filled you with joy, or that job you lost because you stood up for a co-worker, or that ordinary day when you were not expecting God to pay a visit, but suddenly the Sacred showed up.  Keep listening to your life for the beautiful mystery it is; keep exploring your life like it is a new space you’ve never been in; keep remembering and recalling how spaces hold memories…that events are tied to a specific moment in time.  May this holy summer homework open you to the One who is continuing to help you revise and re-story your life every day.  Amen.

Stardust of Experiences and encounters

 

Last week, you pondered the places and people that left impressions on your soul.  The four walls where you received snail mail still reside and rest in the cobwebbed corners of your soul.  Perhaps you felt a bit of nostalgia; the Israelites, even though Egypt was a place of oppression, still wanted to return.  You may have some longing to go back to a place in your past, as Dorothy longed for Kansas.  In addition to our homes, countless people have crossed our paths, leaving traces of grace and grime on us.  People can live rent-free in our minds, and we can’t seem to evict them.  We may discover that we are volunteering at a particular place today because we want to impress our mother, who died years ago.  We may be trying to quiet that inner critic who will never be satisfied, even if you leapt over a tall building in one jump while solving world hunger and forever bringing world peace.  The truth is that everywhere we’ve been shapes us, and everyone we’ve spent more than a few seconds with can take control of the steering wheel or choose the radio station as you drive down the highway of life. 

 

This week, we will add to the chart and art of the story we tell ourselves.  In the space beneath the places/people, I invite you to add stars that reflect some of your experiences/encounters in that place.  The moments that left a lingering/lasting impression.  For example, under Cedar Rapids, Iowa, where I was born, I might write down times I went fishing with my family, and we cooked breakfast on a propane grill (yes, the pancakes got burnt to a crisp, and no amount of sugary syrup helped).  From my time in seminary in Minnesota, I could write about meeting my wife, which was/still is the best day ever!  Also, consider some of the challenging times.  From my childhood, I might have written down my dad losing his job.  During my time living in Minnesota, I would write down, trying to figure out if I was cut out for local church ministry after my first internship.  You can do this in chart form.  Or if you want to let loose your inner artist, draw a star.  At each of the points, write down the spontaneous joy times for that location in life and also the difficult or demanding moments. 

 

I choose stars as a symbol because we have both soil and stardust in our souls.  You are a stunning, sometimes scattered, sacred mixture of people, places, events, and experiences that have gone into the recipe of your life.  The story you tell yourself about yourself, the narratives you repeat at a party when you meet someone for the first time, are a combination and culmination of the past and present.  The stories of yesterday shape us and point us, like a star, toward the future.  Please remember that if all this is feeling too much right now, you have permission (not that you really need it) to not do any of this.  This invitation does not have an expiration date.  You can pick up this prayer practice of listening to your one wild and precious life anytime your shy soul says, “Let’s do that together; it would be fun!!” 

 

It is my prayer as you rewind and remember, reflect and review, God would stir up the beautiful dustiness (remember this image from Genesis 2 ~ God crafting the first human out of dust, which is true for you too).  My prayer is that you would hear God hovering and humming to you.  While God may not call your name from burning bushes, God can be heard in family and ordinary days and beautiful ways.  May you and I discover the Divine who has been part of us and led us thus far on the way.  Amen.

The Places You've Lived that Live in You Prayer

 

God of all places, spaces, forming and fashioning people whose path crosses mine in ways that help and sometimes hurt.  For this fragile, fabulous adventure of life, thank you.  For new insights into the ways spaces and places have/continue to shape me, thank you.  For hearing afresh the ways stories of my parents still sit on the shoulder of my life, whispering in my ear, thank you.  For people, those who blessed me in beautiful ways and those who were like south stars teaching me how not to be, thank you.  For this invitation to listen to my life in all its complexity, contradictions, and cohesion as I superglue parts of my life together in the art project of each day, thank you.  Help me taste the individual parts of my life that have been brought together and blended in the mixer of my soul.  For the places I’ve lived.  For the people I’ve loved.  For the lessons I heard.  For the stories I still tell.  May all these individual ingredients find a blessing in You, O God, in these July days.  Amen.