Prayer

 

Creator and Cultivator of this beautifully broken system called “life,” there is so much that pushes and pulls at us.  Voices within us offering unhelpful, hurtful, color commentary on what we said at that meeting and people trying to give us advise/fix us/save us and systems that tell us just swipe the credit card or click purchase online so that we can enjoy our best life ever.  Help us amid the chaos within us and around us.  Quiet us amid the demands of life that demand we put on our cape and fix everything and everyone, even though they resist our efforts.  Draw near to us.  Settle our Martha-like ways that believe we can’t just sit here with You, O God; we have to do something.  Unsettle our Mary-like ways that believe if we just watch one more sermon online or read one more book or attend that Zoom conversation, we will totally reach enlightenment, might even levitate off the ground.  We are both Mary and Martha; we are both compelled and complacent; we are both constantly moving and exhausted; we are both servers and students, but sometimes we feel like we are always making the wrong decisions.  Remind us, God, that life is not a test; life is awakening to You in the messy mystery with no neat ending.  So may we breathe and be with You here and now, as well as then and there every moment for the rest of this year.  Amen.